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Entries from July 2004

in a sentimental mood.

July 31st, 2004 · No Comments

at the fault of the song by the same title. it’s just. it’s the perfect dinner-and-slow-dance song, and. yeah. anyways. so what do i want then? like most things – it depends on the moment. sometimes i think it’s something casual i’m looking for, and more than a few days lately, i’ve let my mind […]

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just put it on my karmic tab.

July 30th, 2004 · 2 Comments

ever feel like you’ve got training wheels attatched to your life?? or maybe, everything is on mute. on hold, with really lame smooth jazz blaring out the receiver. as though, all i really want is to just crash/burn, but no matter what i do i’ve got the safety on. my guardian angel is clearly waayyy […]

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hannah à la eddie izzard.

July 29th, 2004 · 1 Comment

Which Eddie Izzard line are you? brought to you by Quizilla haha. i should always update in the mornings. (or rather, when i wake up, because it’s not morning) i’ve slept, i feel rested, i haven’t had too much time to introspect…cheer abounds. only one day off instead of two. =\ but….worth it, hopefully. today […]

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i woke up today and it hit me – clearly i’m an optimist.

July 28th, 2004 · 9 Comments

which is really strange, considering i used to be a serious pessimist. i remember realizing one day in tenth grade that everytime anyone asked me how i was doing, i’d tell them i was having a bad day, and proceed to illuminate how. even if it wasn’t really that terrible. i remember the profound surprise […]

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for the benefit of mr kite.

July 27th, 2004 · 1 Comment

actually, no. for my benefit, i write yet again. so i can be that girl that updates her journal 5 times a day. TODAY WAS SHIT. it was going into work without a clear head. and then it was 9 solid hours of the most painstakingly messy calls, and some getting rained on, and also […]

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the mettle beneath the petals.

July 26th, 2004 · 7 Comments

i’m so tired every muscle, every bone, every drop of blood in my veins…..all singing with that thrummmmmm of pure need for oblivion. but to borrow timeless wisdom from Charlotte’s Web….can’t sleep on a full head and an empty stomach. so 4.5 hours and you can just deal, hannah. at least…i’m feeling clearer about things […]

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“don’t get your hopes up.”

July 26th, 2004 · 2 Comments

it felt like….the decision had already been made. now it was just a matter of fighting it. fighting it. that’s already a strike in “it”‘s favor. fuuuuuck. how am i? how am i feeling right now? i’m some cross between crushed and resigned and brave and pending and stupid and something. and something. and the […]

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i go places, and i can’t get there…

July 25th, 2004 · No Comments

arrrrrararrrrarrrrrrr. i swear to god. i really should get a chew toy. i mean, what is my problem? i don’t know that even a chew toy would do any good, because really my favorite thing to bite is shoulder/arm. so yeah, can’t say i really know how to explain that one. hahah. the mind of […]

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how to OD on joy

July 24th, 2004 · 4 Comments

having flopped about like a washed-up fish for a week or so…i’m glad to say that everything is back to it’s usual hannah-ness. that is to say – also so full of squee i’m going to explode any second now. last night was awesome. went up to see dixie, and she was nice enough to […]

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so much easier to say in sound.

July 22nd, 2004 · 1 Comment

so here’s what’s on my mind right now: headspace to a tea. i’m feeling isolated. my own choice, mind. part of it, letting myself be affected by the actions and reactions of others. part of it a withdrawing from awkward situations in general. nothing is as it was. nothing is as it seems. that’s ok. […]

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