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Entries from February 2003

!. ?. —. ¿. ¡. ¿. —. ?. !.

February 28th, 2003 · No Comments

now you’ve seen an exclamation mark do flips. your day should feel complete. i have a lot to say, but, i think. now is not the time. bssszvvvvt. i feel full of energy. energy is mental. i am mental. energy is me. i am full of me?? waiiittt… ppght. ok this post is uselessness. but […]

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breakdown:

February 27th, 2003 · 3 Comments

one book. Magic’s Pawn> La Proie de la Magie. so i’m finally reading the french version of the vanyel series that i picked up when i was over there last. wow. may i just say that i love these books in whatever language? i keep having vague notions about responsibility, but then i get sucked […]

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KNOCK-KNOCK-KNOCK-KNOCK

February 27th, 2003 · No Comments

[stirs, confused] KNOCK-KNOCK-KNOCK. who–who is it? KNOCK-KNOCK-KNOCK [stumbles closer to the door and rasps again.] Who is it? It’s Susann. One minute. god no. tell me everything is ok at the office and they’re not here to tell me my presence is necessary. please no. please. please. carol said it was ok. [peeks out door […]

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sate the urge.

February 26th, 2003 · No Comments

so i just spent roughly the past 3 or so hours in the darkroom. it’s SO BRIGHT out here. surface dwellers. but mission accomplished. i churned out a proof sheet and a few passable prints. well, one specifically that i’m pretty excited about. but i’m not sure i want to go back and spend the […]

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(cover me)

February 26th, 2003 · No Comments

i am sick. there are a lot of little things that have been eating at my defenses for some time, little worries, little heartaches, little stresses, a million little drops of poison, and for today, the defenses have fallen. thusly, i woke up this morning with my throat swollen shut, fever, ache, and a bad […]

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ten minutes late for class and i don’t care.

February 24th, 2003 · 1 Comment

because i can promise i won’t miss anything i couldn’t grasp in half the time. that teacher frustrates me. there’s no substantiality to the man. and he feels we are clearly all too dumb to have graduated grade school. because who takes 2 hours to grasp the whole concept of aperture vs. shutter speed for […]

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waiting.

February 23rd, 2003 · 6 Comments

i spend so much time waiting. i’m waiting to graduate so i can leave here. i’m waiting for summer. i’m waiting till i turn 21. i’m waiting for any one of my myriad hopes to actually pan out. i’m waiting for the weekend again and it’s only sunday night. i’m waiting for an answer. i’m […]

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the exploding of the brain.

February 23rd, 2003 · 2 Comments

ARG. I think it’s time to stop for the morning. i can pick this back up later today. i find myself at serious writer’s block, without even my usual bullshit thesaurus skills to save me, because i just don’t have that kind of command of the french language. Yet, mind you. Yet. plus the cat […]

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Une si longue lettre.

February 22nd, 2003 · 2 Comments

wow. clearly i hadn’t any sort of command of La Belle Langue when i read this book through for the first time and gave it a C. because this woman is phenomenal. i’m so glad i read it again. i mean. such exquisite beauty, in book form. and, i might note, it was Exactly the […]

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peace.

February 22nd, 2003 · No Comments

the highs have dimmed but so the lows have matched, and things seem to lie in a calm, centered fashion. i am having hot tea of the english variety, and homemade cinnamon toast. there are some things that never fail to make me utterly happy, and i go through periods of time when i forget […]

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